it aint hard.

Have you ever heard of that saying "You dont know what their worth until their gone"? I heard it more than I need to. I dont know who thought of this saying, but in my own oppinion, you dont relize what you've got until its gone, you realize it right then and there. If you cant see that you dont realize the obvious.
Living any life isn't easy, no matter how much paradise you may live in. Everyone has issues, or a problem they cant find their way out of.
Me on the other hand I deal with a lot of problems, day after day. You become desperate to get that OK feeling again, and who hasnt. I may never know why I, or better yet we may never know why we go through the shit we go through, but maybe its for the better, but I really cant say. No one has the answers to everything, and if we did, I dont think there would be such thing as islam, catholics, christians, jews you name it.
I'm full of regret, and probably would give anything to change my mistakes, but hey I cant. Maybe that's why the world goes around. Every day is different from every other one, if any one day repeated more than once then that would take the fun outta life, everyday should be a surprise, and hopefully not a disappointment. Lately Ive been focusing on the negativity out of my day to life but who cant. When Its so easy to be traumatized by the littlest of problems. Instead of moving on I forget, block it out. I guess its a condition, because my mind doesn't want to accept the pain, so instead of leaving it behind me I act like it was never there. Sad huh?
I lose touch with people that way.......