the tell-tale heart..hahha!

Congratulations all around...I have managed looking for something new to ear...Hmmm...Eating while i got huge signals of migraine...I puked like mad and my head betray me with surreal pain..I could have died you know. But I made it.Excuse the exageration.
Stuck again in INTI, for the third time...Suffer a great combination of pain, migraine and 'the time of the month' pain...Perfect!
I used to think impatience was my worst quality, I see now it may be patience...procrastinate, designate, create, consumate...and as they say, worst thing does not come all way...I had my time with my loved ones..simple but loving it!! You're the greatest Myan!!
I had one almost completely perfect day this weekend...Moment to moment, back to back...Sure wish I had someone here to screw it all up...Yup...Unhuh...Waiting...Wondering...Pretty darn quiet...Good...........

touch me

Touch me

In secret places

No one has reached before

In silent places

Where words only interfere

In sad places

Where only whispering makes sense.

Touch me

In the morning

When night still clings

At midday

When confusion crowds upon me

At twilight

As I begin to know who I am

In the evening

When I see you and hear you

Best of all..

Touch me

Like a child

Who will never have enough love

For I am a girl

Who wants to be lost in your arms

A woman

Who has known enough pain to love

Touch me

In crowds

When a single look says everything

In solitude

When it's too dark to even look

In absence

When I reach for you through time and miles.

Touch me In the evening
When darkness comes early

And the softness of fur surrounds my face

In morning

When the sun makes me languid

And water laps at my feet In night

When lovers come alive

Touch me

When I ask

When I'm afraid to ask.

Touch me

With your lips

Your hands

Your words

Your presence in the room.

Touch me

Gently

For I am fragile

Firmly

For I am strong

Often

For I am alone.

Touch me

With your thoughts

That only your smile reveals

With your heart, your soul, your mind

Let me know that I am here

For I was made to be touched

by you and you alone..

aftermath

Where does one go from here?
When a moment of time passes
When you feel the touch of fear.

Where does a love flourish?
When the darkness divides them
And the soul is malnourished.

The depths of uncertainty
Let it be known to me,
Without insanity.

The depths of insecurity
Let it flow like the river
Let it be blasphemy.

Why does life have its uncertainties? Why does it have to be so hard? Why do the unknowns scare people? Why do I keep feeling insecure? Why i kept sensing vibe that I'm not the one? Why do I let them bother me? Why do I let them run my thoughts? Why can't I get them out of my head? Why do things have to be so difficult? Why does society rule what people think of each other? Why do people stereotype? Why do people like each other? What is the reason for relationships? Why are people left hanging? What is the reason for people to get intertwined with feelings that doesn't let them lead the life they want to lead? Is there any point in life that a person can live without worry? Why cant people move on? Why I'm the victim? and why, why, why i kept feeling its just a fling?
Does anyone have any answers to these?

I feel the fear of uncertainty, stinging clear..
How much do i let the fear, take the wheel and steer..

padded walls

These padded walls inside my head
try to trap u but gets me instead
and then I drink the red of you
remembering everything I slew.

I collapse inside everything
seeing what tomorrow brings
foretold the winding of the dream
nothings ever what it seems.

My mind explodes in a reigning rage
the story gets told ,there's no next page
no dark corners are nearby
nowhere in which I can hide
only walls surrounding me
walls of broken hearts and dreams.

These padded walls inside my head
try to trap u but gets me instead
and then I drink the red of you
remembering everything I slew.